I’m an Only Child

I think a lot of my personality comes from being alone most of the time as a kid. I didn’t have any brothers or sisters, and thus I’m more comfortable being alone than with other people and I’m incredibly stingy and selfish. I don’t like sharing. I hate even sharing files. My ex-girlfriend, the one who just loved screwing around on me (Christine Louie) used to tell me that “a lit candle loses nothing by lighting another candle” which I assume was her making herself feel better about blowing other dudes, but the point is, even if I was a lit candle, I wouldn’t want to help out an unlit candle.

I Lack Empathy

This is probably a result of being an only child, but I can’t feel bad for other people like most people do. When I hear a sad story and I want to feel bad for them, but I can’t muster it. Shit, I have trouble feeling bad even for my family or girlfriend. They’re crying their eyes out about whatever it is, and all I can think is, “Okay…can I go back to playing video games now?”

I’m Incapable of Maintaining More Than Two Friendships at a Time

I have trouble keeping a circle of friends. I don’t know if it’s entirely my abrasive personality or that I focus entirely on a couple of people, but I never have more than two friends (plus a girlfriend) at any one time. The way I figure is: on weekdays, I just wanna be alone to watch TV and play games after work, and on the weekends, I’ve got one day for hanging out with the guys and one day for hanging out with the girlfriend. When you’re only willing to give your time to other people two days a week, you’re opportunities for making friends and keeping them dwindles.

I Obsess Over Things

When I get into a TV show or a video game, I get into it. I watch every episode or play every game in the franchise straight through from start to finish. I pour over backstory and lore and try to consume everything I can about it. I can’t stop until I’ve consumed every last little bit of it. I spent 9 months in 2009 watching every piece of live action content in the canon Star Trek universe. Every episode and every movie the franchise had to offer. It was nine months, but I just had to watch it all. As soon as that was over, I dug into the Stargate franchise and watched all 10 seasons of SG-1 and all five seasons of SGA. I know, I have a problem.

You’ll Probably Dislike Me in the Beginning

Most folks don’t like me at first. My buddy Tom once said I’m like a disease…that I grow on you. Very few people like me right away. Those that do have wound up being my best friends or girlfriends. I suppose you could say the same thing for most people, but if you don’t like me, it’s often a pretty strong don’t.

I Prefer Drastic Change to Little-by-Little Change

Most changes in my life are big ones. When I moved away from home, I moved to Japan. When I decide to clean my apartment, I throw away half my stuff. I don’t like half-measures. Sure, I lazily wash the dishes or only do some of the laundry, but for the most part, I don’t do things halfway. What happens instead is that I wind up not doing anything.